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"What’s the world’s greatest lie?” the boy asked, completely surprised. “It’s this: that at a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what’s happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate. That’s the world’s greatest lie.”

"One’s Personal Legend is what you have always wanted to accomplish. Everyone, when they are young, knows what their Personal Legend is. “At that point in their lives, everything is clear and everything is possible. They are not afraid to dream, and to yearn for everything they would like to see happen to them in their lives. But, as time passes, a mysterious force begins to convince them that it will be impossible for them to realize their Personal Legend….whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do, when you really want something, it’s because that desire originated in the soul of the universe. It’s your mission on earth”

"And, then hyou want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."

"In any case, it's good that you've learned that everything in life has its price. This is what the Warriors of the Light try to teach."

"When each day is the same as the next, it's because people fail to recognize the good things that happen in their lives every day that the sun rises."

"There was noting to hold him back except himself."

 

"Fatima went back to her tent, and, when daylight came, she went out to do the chores she had done for years. But everything had changed.  The boy was no longer at the oasis, and the oasis would never again have the same meaning it had had only yesterday. ...... From that day on, the oasis would be an empty place for her."

"She would have to send her kisses on the wind, hoping that hte wind would touch the boy's face, and would tell him that she was alive. That she was waiting for him. a woman awaiting a courageous man in search of his treasure."

"Don't think about what you've feft behind."

"There is only one way to learn. It's through action. Everything you need to know you have learned through your journey."

"There had been times when his heart spent hours telling of its sadness, and at other times it became so emotional over the desert sunrise that the boy had to hide his tears. .....But his heart was never quiet."

"Naturally it’s afraid that, in pursuing your dream, you might lose everything you’ve won.” “Well, then, why should I listen to my heart?” “Because you will never again be able to keep it quiet. even if you pretend not to have heard what it tells you, it will always be there inside you, repeating to you what you’re thinking about life and about the world. “You mean I should listen, even if it’s treasonous?” “Treason is a blow that comes unexpectedly. If you know your heart well, it will never be able to do that to you. Because you’ll know its dreams and wishes and will know how to deal with them, you will never be able to escape from your heart. So it’s better to listen to what it has to say. That way, you’ll never have to fear an unanticipated blow."

"It's because I'm the heart of a person, and people's hearts are that way. People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they don't deserve them, or that they'll be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts, become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren't, or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because, when these things happen, we suffer terribly."

"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second’s encountered with God and with eternity."

"When I have been truly searching for my treasure, I’ve discovered things along the way that I never would have seen had I not had the courage to try things that seemed impossible for a shepherd to achieve."

"Later, we simply let life proceed, in its own direction, toward its own fate. But, unfortunately, very few follow the path laid out for them – the path to their Personal Legends, and to happiness."

"So, we, their hearts, speak more and more softly. We never stop speaking out, but we begin to hope that our words won’t be heard: we don’t want people to suffer because they don’t follow their hearts." "From then on, the boy understood his heart. He asked it, please, never stop speaking to him. He asked that, when he wandered far from his dreams, his heart press him and sound the alarm."

"Before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we've learned as we've moved toward that dream."

"Every search begins with beginner's luch. And every search ends with the victor's being severely tested."

"The darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn."

 

 17th Oct. 2009-on the plane to Hong Kong (from San Francisco)

 

   在巴黎的最后一天，是快乐的。

   午后，独自一个人重回塞纳河畔。漫步在河畔，回忆起分别和Joanna与Lily在河边散步的点点滴滴，很感动。第一次来左岸，是和Joanna，两个人顶着寒风，沿着河边走着，寻找着期待已久的d’Orsay Musee。 虽已近初春，可那时的巴黎还是冬天。第二次重游塞纳河，是陪Lily，依稀的记得当时的一抹阳光，深深的记得我们当时的对话和久违了的那份轻松。看着长长的背影，我知道，巴黎的春天是温暖的。现在，我独自走在岸边，身旁的游客说着笑着，穿着鲜艳的吊带，拖着舒适的凉拖。我告诉自己，夏天的巴黎定是一个可爱的城市。

        试着脱掉外套，暖暖的阳光洒在身上，怀念已久的温暖。第一次让自己的肌肤接触到巴黎的空气，顿时一种脱胎换骨的感觉。巴黎，这个几年前曾经让我魂牵梦绕的地方，现在尽然如此的真实，我有点不相信自己已经在巴黎待了一个多月。看着婆娑的树影，我开始回忆起和巴黎的这段情缘。在巴黎，最喜欢的是看天，看流水似的浮云；看花，看草，看洁净的雕塑。当然每次都还是会睹物思人，心里总是停不了的说着写着，一页一页。巴黎的美不仅仅在于景色的美，更在于艺术与文化气息带给巴黎的气质。记得我在L’Orangerie Musee里给Lily说过这样的话：“好羡慕巴黎人民，他们好幸福，只要想来每天都能来看莫奈的画。就算再穷至少每个月可以来看一次。”是啊，巴黎实在是一个宝地，培养了代代艺术家的宝地。纵使我几次三番的从巴黎买各种各样的画册和明信片带回国内珍藏，还是赶不上亲见莫奈原画的幸福和满足感。当我带Lily进入藏有大幅“Water Lilies”的展厅时，Lily也激动得热泪盈眶，看来不是我一个人会对着“莫奈”流泪。巴黎人的闲适与悠然也带给了巴黎与众不同的味道。街头巷尾的小咖啡厅，人们三三两两凑成一桌坐在户外，人群就是他们欣赏的风景，他们也自然的成为了路人相机中的主角。总之大家都在用一种平和，自由的方式“肆无忌惮”地欣赏着身边的一切。这是一种多美的生活状态和追求。

    走过一段左岸的河畔展览，我穿过小桥，开始了右岸的回忆。记得在这里，我和Lily谈起了人生和情感，也就是在这里，我找回了十几年前住在大学家属区的那种踏实和轻松。那次的谈话，把我带回到小学和初中时代。一个只要写完家庭作业就可以尽情玩耍的年代。看着波光粼粼的湖面，一束束金合欢果实映入我的眼帘，我惊诧于眼前的片片金合欢树，在今天第一次拿起相机拍摄了下来。金合欢是和我有着不解之缘的植物。小时候，爸爸从北大寄给我的信中夹着一粒金合欢的小果实。爸爸在信中说：“苗儿，把它挂在窗前，看着它，你也一定能考来北大。”就这样，有着金合欢的小果实伴着我，我考入了北大。但是直到大二，一天从未名湖回寝室的路上，我才发现了那颗金合欢树。我羞愧于自己将他遗忘了两年，真的应该在迈入大学校门的时候就来找寻它的。

        继续前行，我进入了一片热闹的区域。上次和Lily来过的，可是由于时间原因，我们只是匆匆领略了这里的美食。还好今天有充足的时间，我选择了一条小巷，睁着好奇的大眼睛走了进去。看到了好几家希腊餐厅，我好遗憾没有能和Lily一起分享一顿希腊晚餐。心里暗暗的说，等下次有机会能和Lily一起重回巴黎，一定要和她一起品尝一顿地到的希腊海鲜饭。再往里走，看见了一家卖古董首饰的小店，女主人是一位年过半百的老奶奶。我点了点头走进去，她朝我笑了笑。满屋子挂着各式各样的耳环、戒指和项链。我知道Lily一直想找这样的地方，她还一直想买一枚心爱的戒指。想买一枚送给Lily，可是自己对戒指的鉴赏力实在有限，怕买回去Lily不喜欢。穿过小巷，折回头来，不知不觉走到了我今天计划中旅程的最后一站，莎士比亚书店。看着门口沙翁的雕像，心中阵阵神圣的感觉。当然不仅是因为沙翁是文坛大将，还因为我很喜欢的一部爱情电影取景于此。我摒住呼吸走了进去。书店不大，老实的说是有点拥挤。书籍被堆放的错落有致，书架陈旧的像古董，我似乎能闻到书籍的墨香味，再仔细闻闻，又怀疑是书箱的霉味。我顺着窄窄的楼梯走了上去，看到了电影中的那间小屋。突然觉得电影里面的主人公好幸福，十年后还能再次相见，解开了误会，发现彼此还保有同样的心。人生能如此也就无憾了吧？

    看了看时间，要走了。为了找RAR回家，我又换回到右岸。本以为就要从此结束巴黎一行了，但是却惊讶的发现右岸有一排花店。老天真是太青睐我了，知道我在巴黎的最后一个心愿难以实现，现在竟然在我面前出现了数十家花店。我是一个爱花如命的人，上次买了很多花种子带回国，可惜都忍不住送给了朋友，自己最心爱的Lavender送给了Joanna。一直惦记着找个机会再买一袋给自己，可苦于没有时间去寻觅花店。把买好的Lavender放进包里，作为这次巴黎之行送给自己的礼物。回来的路上，在一家非常精致的小店精心挑选了一些明信片。心里美滋滋的，憧憬着送给大家礼物的那一刻，自己心中的那份快乐。让我高兴的是碰见了印着Jan Vermeer《戴珍珠耳环的少女》的明信片，我知道项目上一个同事非常喜欢这幅画，就赶快买了给她。只可惜她已经离开了项目，只能等我下次回北京的时候带给她了。商店的老板是一个胖胖的，很幽默的法国人，他教了我一个法语单词“gros bisous”。他还试图给我示范“bious”与“gros bisous”的差异，呵呵，真是让我虚惊一场。

    这次是真的要走了，不知道此次分别什么时候还能再和巴黎相聚。真得很感谢在这段时间和我分享的朋友们，所有的点点滴滴我都会深深地记在心里。就像Lily说过的：“其间发生了太多的事，在我们彼此的生命里都留下了深深的印记”。巴黎伴我走过人生中非常重要的一段，我一定会再回来看望她。

    在巴黎的这段时间，想了太多，说了太多；笑了太多，也哭了太多。剩下的日子要开开心心的，就像巴黎的夏天，优雅，淡然。无论经历过什么，或者将要经历什么，我都一如既往的感激生命。

 

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二零零九年六月十三日于巴黎

 

 

今晚闲适，在屋洗衣。

 

看着水流的漩涡，忽然回想起大学时候。。

那时，每次洗香香回来的路上就开始期待在洗手间洗衣的快乐。

 

也是听着音乐，悠悠地洗着；

可这次少了臭丹在耳边的絮叨和老鼠的嬉笑声。

想想看已经很多年过去了，欣慰的是我还能找回这种感觉；

更加令我开心的是，如今的我，居然可以自己洗裤子了，呵呵。

 

期待着十分钟后熨衣服的悠然：）

 

 

二零零九年五月二十七日夜，巴黎

 

 

小J同学说我总是在心中幻想美好的生活，这样的幻想早就应该打破。
谢谢你的指点。
其实我想要的只是简单、平静、温馨的生活。真的很难吗？
 
也许我是白活了这些年。到了这样的年纪还如此幼稚的在追求不切实际的东西。真的是不知道熟长熟幼了。
 
可是为什么要活得那么现实呢？我不喜欢。。。
 
不再追求完美，做一个现实的理想主义者，慢慢来吧。

 

 

爸爸妈妈总是在身后默默的支持我寻找自己的幸福，

也许我该停下来，好好为他们做一些事情了。

 

只有父母是无私的为你好的。

 

想念爸爸妈妈。

 

 

 

亲爱的V，

 

今晚下班的时候，阳光明媚，好让人喜欢。

坐在客户的车里，我看着窗外巴黎郊外的风景，

想起了那晚你坐在车窗旁的样子。

 

你说你想去越南散心，

我说我好不舍得离开深圳去巴黎。

我们努力的守护着心中的希望，

那份勇敢和执著，现在想想让人心疼。

 

转眼一周过去了，一周的辛酸苦辣，

我想我明白，你也定是了解的。

 

你总是对我说“从明天开始，做一个幸福的人”

我笑笑，心中默默的许念，为我们。

你安慰我说：“你想我的时候我会知道”

谢谢你，亲爱的好姐妹，我相信你会知道。

 

临走前，我向你保证，我会在巴黎微笑每一天。

你鼓励我说“你总是笑着的”。

我多想回来继续听你讲你的故事，微笑着，

现在，那个凄美的故事，我却总是无法把她与你的温暖联系起来。

 

亲爱的V，我固然是相信你的坚强，

你永远睁着大大的眼睛，用冷静去承担着一切。

但是我多么的希望在那一刻有我在身边安慰你，

实在不忍看到你那时的笑容。

 

好姑娘，我答应你，每年我们都一起来庆祝我们的五月二十一日，

我会在Paris为你挑选最好的节日礼物，也期待着收到你为我准备的惊喜：）

 

我就快要回去了，

还是决定遵守我们的誓言，让我们笑着相见：）

 

 

二零零九年五月二十二日夜里，于巴黎

 

 

注： 亲爱的，你说要一篇苗苗写的文章。现在虽然有了她，可终是没有信心的。还是喜欢你能喜欢。

 

 

 

 

 

Lily说我的房间好温暖，苗到哪里都能把屋子布置得很温馨。

我想我是一个内心温暖的人。

 

这几天把我妖魔化的两个小同学，感谢你们，哈哈，我其实没有你们想象的那么严重，真的。

 

你曾经说过，体会幸福是我与生俱来的本领。

对不起，亲爱的，我忘记这句话很久了................：）

忘记了去体会幸福，也忘记了带给你幸福。

我是知错就改的好孩子：）

 

幸福，轻盈，优雅依旧是我的状态，一生的状态。

 

 

二零零九年五月二十二日晨于Paris La Defence Renaissance Hotel 712